Sunday Sprinkles-Where Am I?

Where am I? 

That is a good question. I'm not sure where I am right now.

I'm not sure if I care where I am right now.

I'm not sure if I want to try to find out where I am.

Where am I?

I'm not looking for pity,

I'm not looking for sympathy.

My mind is all over the place,

no matter what I do I can't stop it.

I try to pretend everything is ok,

when inside I know it's not.

Where am I?

I am not the perfect mother,

I'm not the perfect daughter

or even the perfect friend.

I need to be more to my family,

my job,

myself.

I hate depending others;

for their love,

their friendship,

their respect.

Where am I?

Am I still in the place you left me?

Am I still sitting by the phone,

looking out the window,

waiting for that knock,

or in the crowd?

Where am I?

I try so hard to put on a brave face,

to be what everyone else wants 

or needs me to be.

 I try to be the strong one,

the helpful one,

the responsible one,

the happy go lucky one.

Where am I?

Peace, Love and Cupcakes